I Lack Nothing

Have you ever noticed the amount of reflective blogs that begin with 'The other day...'?  

I promise I won't go on a tangent about this. I'll just be precise.

It is -Friday, before Mother's day, 2024. No, nothing special about today or this coming mother's day. At least that I know about.

I woke up today and felt slightly strange though. I have what I call a dance. It takes me a while to gather the energy to get out of bed and then wake up (yes, that is the order of events), so I dance. I begin by praying for whatever is weighing on my heart while I toss and turn, then I check for any pressing notification, then I grab my Bible... and so on. But this morning nothing was weighing on my heart. I prayed, but I couldn't find anything to desperately pray for.

I got out of bed and began my routine, still feeling odd. I know that I had an appointment and the drive is long, typically a stressor, yet I was calm. The chat with my mom didn't last long today, so I thought  'ok, more time with God'. Then I started looking around the house, it was clean. I clean yesterday in preparation for the busy weekend. Thought about the things I needed for groceries, I didn’t need anything. Thought about my upcoming class, the books had arrived.

Then, I realized it. I lack nothing. 

If I were to go into more detail about the things I considered or looked at (bank accounts, bills, etc.), searching for that daunting feeling that usually accompanies me -well, it would take a while and it may be boring. Suffice is to say, I can't remember the last time I felt this way. I worry a lot, I'm a broken human being in constant need of Christ. 

The past few months have been an uphill battle of recovery. I am not working but I am back in the PhD program. However, when my health plummeted back in the Fall, it left lingering marks (yes, plural) that I am working to heal. Some of them are fear and worry. 

So, in the past few months along with my efforts to recover some of my physical health, I have done my best to surrender those fears and worries to God. From my point of view, to my failure. Today, however, God showed me that my efforts have not been in vain, though I need to continue to surrender, his peace is with me (John 14:27) reminding me (John 14:26) that he is my shepherd and I lack nothing (Psalm 23:1).

What about you? Because I know this much, every one of you are going through something hard. When was the last time you experienced God's peace amid the hardship? How did He let you know that despite the problem(s) you lacked nothing because He got your back? Were you able to enjoy that moment of peace or did the troubles trumpeted the calm?